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The Index

 

Alice Tully: An Intimate Portrait (1999 memoir by Albert Fuller), 49-50, 119

All That Jazz (1979 Bob Fosse film), 9

Also Sprach Zarathustra (1883-1885 Nietzsche treatise and 1896 Richard Strauss tone poem), 28-29, 32, 111

Anderson, Nancy, 61, 73, 75, 95, 120

Apparition of the Eternal Church (film), 7; cast, children in, 71; cast, complaints by, 69-70; cast, destruction of Philippe Starck ERO/s chair by, 37; cast, drug use by, 20; cast, religious beliefs of, 58-59; credits and acknowledgments, 114; debt to silent film, 111; difficulty of listening and talking in, 22; edit of, 35, 75; experiments in, 51; influences and antecedents, 46; instructions to cast, 31; interviews of director, 32; interviews, number of, 35; music used in, 21, 33, 76, 106-114; New York premiere screening, 119; objections to, by Robert Mann, 26; objections to, by Camille Paglia, 52; sequels to, proposed, 76; screenings and awards, 74, 115-116; three-part structure, 102

Apparition of the Eternal Church (music), 7; and appeal to youth, 71-72; and autism 37; as Bach on a bad day, with dyspepsia, 27; as balls-to-the-wall, 73; Baroque quality of, 26; block structure of, 21, 26, 65; and blood dripping down Christ’s chest, 55; felt in the body, 65, 112, 113; and the body being dragged, in the dust, off into the distance, 98; as bombastic, 74; as California condor hovering over a dead cow, 70; celestial nature of, 32; and chords attached to spinal column in some way, 67; and chords wrenching your whole body around, 67; colors heard in, 68; complexity, 61, 90-92; and contemplation of sins, 109; and crusades, holy grails and invading armies, 52; and Dante’s inferno, 48; and Day of Judgment, 53; dissonance in, 60, 61, 62; and divinity, 90-92; its drama ending, becoming a little sad, 95; earthiness of, 32, 38; earthliness of, 32; and ecstasy, 42; and Ecstasy, 53; as so emotional, like somebody whipping their head back in anticipation, their hair flying off their skull, 85; and eternity, 108; and fear, 49, 64, 71-72, 108; as fist of God, 55; and floating, 65; and flute, lack of, 41, 106; as gentiles really laying it on, 73; as getting better and better, 68; as getting to be a little much, 73; and the Gothic, 45, 51, 52; and harpies swooshing down to tell you about all the terrible things you did in your life, 53; as headache-inducing, 70; and hell, 49, 55, 108; and horror soundtrack, 35; as ice breaking, 38; as Ilan Greenberg’s mother’s soundtrack, 40; and infinity, 63; and Jesus in the desert, seeing God in a cloud, 52; and laughter in response to, 72-73; and length, 69; as loud, 74; as magma, miasma, 38; as making you go ahhhhhh! 66; and man with giant horns with fire licking up around him, greeting you, 85; and martyrdom, 42, 112; Messiaen’s description of, 63-65, 67-68, 76; minimalism of, 76; and moment of about to be killed, about to open a door, 84; as nondirectional, 65-66; “oh my god!” in response to, 49, 50, 76, 78, 84; as orgasm approaching, 66; as overwhelming, 66; painkillers, as requiring, 89; like parent about to explode in a rage, 40; as “pillar-like,” 65; pyramidal structure of, 66, 75; and rape/surrender, 35, 111, 113, 114; recordings of, 87; and repenting sins, 79; and resolution, 64; as ridiculous, 74; as rocks moving, 38; and St. Cecelia holding you her breasts on a plate, 42; and sado-masochism/bondage & discipline (BDSM), 89, 90, 111, 114; and St. Sebastian, 52; as seismic, 38; as self-indulgent, 70; and sex, 35, 67, 90, 95; and being smothered, 109; as staircase, 27, 62, 63, 65; and the Sisyphus thing, 75; as stopping just as you start to think you’re going to go crazy, 68; and the sun setting on barren landscape, cracked earth, 98; like a swarm of bugs in Egypt, 52; thickness and harshness of, 95; and torture, 42-43, 74, 75, 111; and 2001 Space Odyssey, 52; and the unbeliever, 7, 55, 58, 59, 89-92, 107; as unmetered expression, 73; and vampires/Count Dracula, 35; as vehicle to reach God, 27; victorious, triumphant sound of, 95; Washington National Cathedral premiere of, 39, 47-50; as waves crashing, 38; weeping provoked by, 97, 99; and womb/childbirth, 44; and wrath of God, 109; and Yom Kippur, 53; as young man’s work, 70

atheism, 29, 58-59, 112

autism – see Apparition of the Eternal Church (music) and Clarkson, Ginger

Bach, J.S., 26, 27; as Lutheran, 100; his music as Oriental and barbaric, 100; organ works played by the young Manoel Felciano, 116; works: "O man, now weep for thy great sin,” 100

The Bar Nothing, 37, 44; naming of, 31

Beat, Jackie, 11, 24, 35, 51, 74, 95; childhood of, 24

Becker, Dan, 66, 68, 90, 111; about, 68

Beller, Alexandra, 63

Bernard-Delapierre, Guy, 97

Blake, William – see The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

Blonde, Squeaky, 30, 45, 91-93; Apparition interview, 30; controversy over, 93-94

Bloom, Harold, 18, 27, 35, 48, 69, 70, 105, 106, 109; Yale seminar “Shakespeare and Originality,” 18, 72; memory for poetry, 18; as too old to contemplate his sins, 109

Blowjob (1963 Warhol film) – see Warhol, Andy

Bond, Justin, as Kiki DuRane, 35, 43, 69, 94; role in Shortbus, 44

Buchdahl, Rabbi Angela, 38, 53, 61, 109, 110, 112

Cal Performances, 116

Calloway, Paul, 117

Carnival of Souls (1962 Herk Harvey film), 35

Carson, Shanti, 29, 49, 50, 85, 120; acquaintance with director, 85

Caouette, Jonathan, 35

Christ, Peaches, 11

church, 99; as big black body that hovers over the earth, 70

Church of the Ascension and St. Agnes (DC), 100

Church of St. Mary the Virgin (New York) – see Smoky Mary’s

Church of the Trinity (Paris), 101

Clarkson, Ginger, music therapy and treatment of autism, 46

Cuenod, Hugues, 70

Cumming, Alan, 16

Dante – see The Inferno

Davis, Angela, 14

Davis, Eisa, 14, 31, 33, 34, 41, 42, 45, 55, 74, 76, 77-80, 84, 98, 101; acquaintance with director, 14; interview with, 80

Dubowski, Sandi, 20-21, 37, 40, 54, 56-57, 81, 85; childhood desire to be autistic, 40; director of Trembling Before G-d, 20, 54; Hunter College High School, 20

DUMBA Queer Performing Arts collective, 68

Dusheck, George, and Apparition interview, 70; and worship of Elisabeth Schwarzkopf, 57-58

Einstein on the Beach, 76

Eisenstaedt, Alfred, 46

Felciano, Manoel, 16, 24, 55, 62, 63, 72, 75, 81, 103, 108, 116, 121; acquaintance with director, 16; childhood organ associations 103; making out with Alan Cumming in Cabaret revival, 16; falling into orchestra pit in Jesus Christ Superstar revival, 16; and father, 24, 72, 103; religious beliefs of, 108; Tony nomination for Sweeney Todd revival, 16

Felciano, Richard, 24, 38, 65, 72; first hearing of Apparition in Notre Dame, 24; studies with Messiaen, 24, 103-105

Festa, Paul, 121, 123; and alienation as atheist, 112-113; audition for and appearances in Shortbus, anthologized essays about, 44, 85; chamber music studies with Albert Fuller, 9; confrontation with former Supreme Court Justice Lewis Powell, 17; first filmmaking attempt, 44; member of San Francisco Symphony Youth Orchestra, 10; member of Testosterone Trio, 15; and his novel The Breeders, 44; posing for Frank Yamrus “Rapture Series,” and related essay, 46; response to Apparition (music), 42-43, 66; violin studies with Robert Mann, 23; Yale studies, 17, 18, 36

Formes et couleurs (Swiss art journal) 97

Fuller, Albert, 9, 12, 23, 25, 39, 47, 52, 60, 61, 70, 87, 89, 95-97, 99-100, 104, 115, 117, 119, 121; apartment, 9, 12, 13, 15; Alice Tully: An Intimate Portrait, author of, 49-50, 119; and caviar, dislike of, 40; as choirboy at Washington National Cathedral, 104, 117; death of, 117; fluency in French, 40; interview with, 80; keyboard career, 13, 39, 100, 104; Messiaen, encounter with, 39; Messiaen performances, 39, 47-50, 104; on Mitchell, John Cameron, 86; as model for angel with flaming feet in John H. de Rosen mural in Washington National Cathedral’s St. Joseph of Arimathea Chapel, 48; at New York premiere screening of Apparition (film), 119; pilgrimage to hear Messiaen improvise, 19; religious beliefs of, 99; sexual initiation of, in pipe organ swell box, 117; teachings of, 9, 23; tendency to confabulate, 49-50; youth, 23, 48

Galapagos Art Space, 85

Gallman, Ron, 10, 19, 26, 32, 38, 60; acquaintance with director, 10; as director of San Francisco Symphony Youth Orchestra, 10; pilgrimage to hear Messiaen improvise, 19

Gilda (1946 Charles Vidor film), 31

Gomez, Marga, 34, 106

Gordon, Ricky Ian, 38, 48, 105, 113, 120

The Gospel According to Jesus Christ (1991 José Saramago novel), 109-110, 112

Grace Cathedral (San Francisco), 116

Greenberg, Ilan, 40, 41, 44, 69, 95; about, 41; on Apparition as sex music, 96

Handler, Daniel, 73

Harker, James, 37, 44, 80, 114

Hartman, Karen, 22, 41

Hayworth, Rita, 31

headphones, melting of, 85; stabbing of 85-86

Helicon Foundation, 9

Hilmer, Jan, 85, 111

Ideler, Juliette, 70

In C (1964 Terry Riley musical work), 76

The Inferno (1308-1321 Dante poem), 48

Jacaranda music series (Los Angeles), 116

Jacobs, Paul, 79, 89

James, Jasper, 64, 65, 68, 112, 113

Jesus, crucifixion of, 55, 57, 100

Jimmy (childhood friend of Albert Fuller), 117

The Juilliard School, 9, 12, 23

Juilliard String Quartet, 23

Kant, Immanuel, and his notion of the sublime, 110

Kiki & Herb, 35 (see also Bond, Justin, as Kiki DuRane)

Kiki DuRane – see Bond, Justin, as Kiki DuRane

Kiviniemi, Kalevi, 33

Koestenbaum, Wayne, 36, 42, 52, 53, 60, 61, 62, 63, 68, 107, 114, 120; Yale English class, 36

Kubrick, Stanley – see 2001 Space Odyssey

Latry, Olivier, 34, 87

Leonardo – see Mona Lisa

Levingston, Bruce, 120

Lewis, Flossie, 70

Loriod (Loriod-Messiaen), Yvonne, 111

MacDowell Colony, 36

Mann, Robert, 26; Apparition interview, 26, 70; teachings of, 23

The Marriage of Heaven and Hell (1790-1793 William Blake book), 111-112

Matronic, Ana, 25, 42, 52, 53, 89, 98

Messiaen (2005 biography by Peter Hill and Nigel Simeone), 53, 60, 97-98, 101

Messiaen, Olivier, 7; alleged anti-Semitism and relationship with Nazis, 56-59; and birdsong 59; and Christian mysticism, 98; and the church, 100; and complexity, 89-92, 107; as corporeal, 107; criticism of for disparity between music and theme, 53; and crucifixion of Christ, 42, 100; and Cubism, 98; defense of own work, 60; and dissonance, 60; encounter with Albert Fuller, 39-40; eroticism of his music, 95-98; eternity represented in his music, 90-92, 103-105; fondness for caviar, 40; and four “dramas,” 59; and horror films, appreciation of, 111; hedonism in his music, 114; ignorance of English, 40; and limits of human perception, 90-92; modes of limited transposition, 67; as nudnik, 106; organ post at the Church of the Trinity, 19, 101; and pagan violence, 98; recordings and interpretations by, 87; regard for criticism of his work, 105; and repetition, 105; his rhythm derived from Dominican and Gregorian chant, 103-104; and secular audience, 59; and sensuality, abandonment to, 98; surrender to his music, 114; and synaesthesia, 29, 59; 2008 centenary, 74, 116; works: Ascension Suite, 43, 47; Book of the Holy Sacrament, 79; Celestial Banquet, 33; complete organ works, 34; From the Canyons to the Stars, 39; Hymn to the Holy Sacrament, 53; Nativity Suite, 43; Organ Book, 43; Quartet for the End of Time, 56; Visions of Amen, 96 (see also Apparition of the Eternal Church [music])

Mitchell, John Cameron, 44, 52, 64, 69, 70, 71, 86, 88; acquaintance of director, 44; music video for Bright Eyes, 46

Mona Lisa (c. 1503-1505 Leonardo painting), 19

music therapy, 46

Nazis, 56-58, 97

Nietzsche, Friedrich – see Also Sprach Zarathustra

Notre Dame (Paris), 25, 79

Nuxoll, Dan, 121

Oh My God, making of, 74

Oppens, Ursula, 38

Owen, Barry, 68

organ, in a cathedral, 77, 103, 104, 115, 116, 117; as double-entendre, 34; as goyish instrument, 54; headphones and, 77; as hyper-embodied, 114; as instrument to terrorize the Jewish people, 54; and the pogrom, 56

Paglia, Camille and objections to Apparition (film), 52

Pig Iron Theater Company, 38

The Positive Bar, 13, 15

Povinelli, Elizabeth, 32, 40, 48, 49, 84, 110, 111; personal experience of Catholicism, 32, 84

Queen Latifah, 14

Radical Faeries, 67, 73

Ragdale Foundation, 33

Rapetti, Marco, 15

The Rest Is Noise (2007 Alex Ross book) – see Alex Ross

Riley, Terry – see In C

Rogers, John, 67, 108

Ross, Alex, The Rest Is Noise, 65

Sage, Texxxas, 73, 81

St. Agnes Church (San Francisco), 116

St. Bartholomew’s Church (New York), 77, 116, 119

San Francisco Symphony Youth Orchestra, 10

Sanford, Sarah, 38, 52

Saramago, José – see The Gospel According to Jesus Christ

The Scissor Sisters, 25

Scream, Teen, Scream (1996 Joshua Rosenzweig movie), 11

Schwarzkopf, Elisabeth, 57-58

Sex Film Project – see Shortbus

Shakespeare, William – see Titus Andronicus

Shortbus (2006 John Cameron Mitchell movie), 44, 68, 73, 85; see also Mitchell, John Cameron

Smoky Mary’s, a.k.a. Church of St. Mary the Virgin (New York), 25, 79, 89

Southern Circuit Tour of Independent Filmmakers, 112, 116

Snicket, Lemony, 73

Stern, Johan, 15

Strauss, Richard – see Also Sprach Zarathustra

Stresen-Reuter, Ned, 66

Struth, Thomas, 46

Testosterone Trio (The Testostertones), 13, 15; visit to Alice Tully, 49-50

Titus Andronicus, 72

Trafka, William, 77, 121

Trannyshack, 25, 30

Tully, Alice, apartment, 40; challenging Albert Fuller’s religious beliefs, 99; silver caviar tureen and matching shovel, 40; visit by Testosterone Trio after her stroke, 49-50

2001 Space Odyssey, 29, 32, 52

Unetaneh Tokef (Hebrew prayer), 110

Warhol, Andy, 46

Warner, Michael, 67, 107, 114; on Messiaen and limits of human perception, 89-92

Washington National Cathedral (DC), 39, 47-50, 104, 117; and St. Joseph of Arimathea Chapel mural “The Entombment of Christ,” by John H. de Rosen, 48

Yale University, 17, 18, 36, 67

Yamrus, Frank, 46